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music/lyrics by chiyoko yoshida

got lost in you for a while
cause it was easier than being myself
somehow this all got stronger
funny how you knew it was all fucked up but still alright
funny how i couldn't make it that way when i wanted
i was mad but not insane
i hated everything that day

i didn't want to lie
it was just something to do
i didn't have to cry
it just felt like i wanted to
you say you understand
how could you

your mouth threatens a smile
catching in the corner of my eye
blink twice try to wash it out
feels like sin, tasts like nothing, spit it out
it lingers black in your art
a tapestry of lines and hours

i didn't want to lie
it was just something to do
i didn't have to cry
it just felt like i wanted to
didn't want to admit
it was bigger than me
you say you understand
how could you

no daylight
no wind here
no breathing now
stay still just for the while
there's no more trickery